Interview day tomorrow (3.30 pm). Its been a hard couple of years after my breakdowns and I've been lucky enough to find a job that's not too taxing (although medical terminology takes a lot of getting used to) and I'm lucky enough to work in a place where we get on with one another.
I've talked myself out of and into attending the interview a thousand times since reading the letter last Wednesday. The job's on the same grade as I was on a couple of years ago before I resigned after deciding I couldn't face going back and putting myself through it.
Now I find that I'm bored doing my current role and I want to do something more challenging but to be honest I'm scared of the old demons coming back and losing control.
My life is totally different now, how? Well finally we'e got friends and a social life, our kids are now at an age where they're no longer dependent especially R as she's flown the nest and is living with R. I had six month's counselling which helped me to realise some of my own problems which previously I'd never realised. So all in all its a different picture than two years ago.
Question is what's worse staying in a mundane job cos I'm frightened of stretching myself (lack of confidence me thinks), or getting on with it and ok if it goes wrong so be it but at least I'll know I tried and perhaps I need to think of a change in career.
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